The Universe appears to have ended. I have no sense of time and space. Not only do I not see anything, but I have lost the sensation of having eyes, ears, or any other sensory apparatus. I do feel a little tingly though.
I'm not sure how Livejournal fits into this.
Still a basic feeling of nonexistence -- I try to judge the temperature of my surroundings but come up empty. I guess this isn't so surprising since I think neither my surroundings nor my body exists.
Hmmm, this appears to be evidence of the independent existence of the soul. Who knew?
Still plenty of nothing. A little dull, but I feel oddly emotionless -- I guess glands and hormones and things have a lot to do with what I would normally consider my mental state. Does that sentence even make sense? Oh, well.
I guess I may as well record how I got here. Not much to tell -- I woke up this morning (well, some morning -- not sure how the concepts apply any more) and was taking a shower when I suddenly felt the Universe collapsing in on me. I don't remember a lot about it -- it happened too fast for me to really tell what was going on -- but there was a sense of everything simultaneously shrinking and becoming less substantial. Then, quite literally, nothing.
I guess I could be in a hospital somewhere unconscious right now, but that doesn't feel right. I've never had a dream like this as far as I can remember. Although I have had some pretty dull dreams in my time. Anyway, this experience seems completely new.
Maybe since there's no longer an external world to interact with I should be focusing on my interor life. That seems kind of solipsistic, though. On the other hand, how can I be sure that I'm not the only consciousness around?
It seems unlikely that when the Universe ended I was the only 'survivor', so I'd think that other 'people' (or other instances of whatever I am right now) have got to be out there. Is someone reading this? Unfortunately this Livejournal link seems to be one-way from my perspective; I'm not even sure it really exists.
Doubting my own existence seems kind of dumb, though, so I guess Descartes was on to something.
Well, OK, so what are the limits of my cognition? I just calculated a table of logarithms -- I don't think I could do that before, certainly not in my head ... Maybe I should try something a little more challenging, like proving the Goldbach Conjecture.
Well, how about that. Found a counterexample. Go figure.
Math was a lot more satisfying when it was more challenging.
Hmmm, it seems like my improved mathematical abilities (or maybe I can just concentrate on things in a more sustained way? Hard to tell the difference at this point) come with improved visualization abilities. I've never been that visual, I think because of my crummy vision; now that I don't have physical eyes my inner eyes seem to be a lot sharper. I can concentrate on a bunch of different things at the same time, too, without losing focus on any one of them. This could come in handy if there were anything I could actually physically do.
Hmmm, this game is actually sort of interesting; I can simulate different cosmological models in my head! It's not that hard, really -- start out with some rules and interesting initial conditions, and see what you get! The tricky part is keeping track of all the individual pieces, and the fun part is seeing what larger patterns emerge from the randomness. Cool!
Man, I hope those guys don't think they'll get any special treatment by praying to me. Homie don't play that way.